The time has come where the leasing office reaches out to me with an offer to renew my lease in their community. My lease is over in October and with inflation the rents are going up. I have been so nervous about my rent going up and by how much. Well, the universe works in mysterious ways because the office reached out to me earlier than usual. It is like the universe knew I needed to know. Well rent went up. Not by much but more than usual.
I have been living in this community for about 4 years now and it feels like home now to my kids. My oldest is nervous to move. He struggles with anxiety like I do, and we do not like change or the unknown.
My fist apartment here was the cutest things ever! It felt so mine. It was small but big enough for us. it was cozy, it was 2 room and 2 bathrooms. We had a 1 1/2 car garage, our car fit perfectly, and we still had room for our bike and workout things. Because that was my workout space. I had a punching bag, all my weights, my yoga mat. My kids shared room. At the time I only had 2 kids. And my youngest which was 4 would sleep with me most of the time. I gave them the biggest room with the biggest closet which could be a room, they had their own bathroom and a double sink. Each kid had a place for their own things. We had small round dining room table that fit 1 more person if we wanted to invite someone over for dinner. There was a place to hang-up the backpacks when we got home from school and work. And I even had a dry erase planner above it to keep up with everyone schedules! The living room was the perfect size for our small blue sectional and our $20 Walmart bookcase. We had our own private entrance and our own fenced in yard that we did not have to do the upkeep to. Which is the best part about this place. They keep ’em looking nice!
When we moved in 2018 our building was just finished being built so we were the first to live in that apt. everything was new and beautiful. Never thought I would get to live in a place like that, and then BOOM I did. I still remember walking into that apartment for the first time. it was love at first sight. I saw it, I wanted it, and I got it! So many great memories there.
I was running away from my old situation. From the misery I was in the apartment before this one.
And now I am doing the same. I decided to expand my family and get back with my ex. We added one more munchkin to the mix and upgraded apartment. Still the same community but a 3bd instead and 2 car garage. It is bigger here, but it never felt cozy. It never felt like a home. Same layout just a few more feet. Things did not work out between us. We coparent now. But because this new apartment was supposed to be for our growing family and things did not go that way it felt empty. My worst times are in this apartment. Here I got cheated on again! I was pregnant and alone here. I had anxiety here. I would spend countless nights praying to God for forgiveness because I felt punished. I was sad, hurt, wounded. My soul got shattered here, I was lied to, emotionally abused. What I thought was going to be a cozy apartment turned into a cold, empty place to sleep in. Nothing looks good for me here. So now that my lease is coming to an end, it is time to move. To run away from here. I need something new, different, where I get a chance to start all over again as who I am today. No reminders of what could have been or should have. I am excited for this new home. New chapter for us as a coparenting family.
I am going to miss it here. I know my kids are too. But I know it is time, I can feel it in my bones that my time in this community had ended. I grew here. And I am looking forward to making more memories in our new home.
xoxo,
Yvonne H